I Thought I’d Be Further By Now

Maybe I should give myself more grace. I thought I would be further in life or have accomplished more by now.

But the path I’ve been on hasn’t been straight at all. It’s gone in a lot of different directions, and somehow it feels like a loop of all my choices — like I’ve been circling through different versions of myself instead of moving in a clear line forward.

I keep thinking about the version of me that thought things would be more figured out by now. more certain. More “on track.” Whatever that even means.

But instead, it’s been messy. A lot of trial and error. A lot of changing my mind. A lot of starting something, stopping, restarting, and ending up somewhere I didn’t plan for.

And I guess I’m starting to realize that maybe that’s still progress, even if it doesn’t look the way I expected it to.

I don’t really know if I’m where I “should” be, but I’m here. And it’s my path, even if it doesn’t move in a straight line.

So I guess my question is…

Does anyone else feel like their life hasn’t gone straight forward, but in loops and detours they didn’t expect?